Hi all!
I'm writing this communication not only to document my own
personal journey towards recovery but also, more importantly, to
share with others the intensity of my relief, which is so
tangible.
And which I think, can easily be provided to others who need
it. I have been in talk therapy for a few sessions for sorting
personal issues, the reasons for which I knew nothing
about.
The end result of these was depression and emptiness…
A sense of
not belonging and a very deep alienation from friends and
family. I found myself negative on every front, finding faults
in everyone, hating my life which seemed meaningless and of no
value.
Fortunately I reached out to Sangeeta Taneja who directed me
toward a healer.
During my first session with the therapist, she told me about
EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) and taught me how to use it.
As soon as she did it with me, I felt a physical shift in the
emotional state of my body and I was hooked! In the second
session the healer asked me if my issues might be based on envy.
Angrily, I denied instantly. On reflection, I found that the
childhood teaching of envy being related to wealth, achievement,
material acquisition, social status... wasn't the whole story at
all. I was full of envy!But it was the envy of others happiness…
A thing we are not taught to discuss. This was my first
breakthrough.
After acknowledging this, I started practising the EFT
technique and found out that the interrupted sleep pattern and
the hollow emptiness on waking up, melted away. I could return
to my interrupted sleep after the practise and was able to wake
up refreshed. Simultaneously, as often happens when life is
opening up, I saw a YouTube podcast identifying HSP - highly
sensitive people, who are different from the norm… Who don't fit
into set grooves and are mostly out of place in society till
they find their calling or inner self. Most artists and
innovators and creative people are this way. I acknowledged
myself as one of these and felt my second breakthrough with an
enormous sense of relief as though a weight of stones had been
lifted from my stomach. I WAS NOT ALONE! There was a community
of us out there… Apparently 15% of the population!
This was my second breakthrough.
I forwarded the presentation to a few people who I thought had
not understood me and others who I thought might benefit from
it. It was obvious I expected responses. I got none! I then felt
extremely vulnerable, I was punishing myself for exposing my
weakness since I had mentioned I was an HSP on every front. On
processing my feelings I realised my vulnerability arose from
feeling inadequate in some way and that if I felt this way
others too would see me like this. This was my third
breakthrough.
I then stood up to my own self image and reiterated and accepted
my differentness and that it was my strength and basic character
and that I would no longer suppress it or try to fit in.
To this end, from that day, I start my morning with a routine
tailored to energize Me. Not something taught by someone as
being the right thing or even necessary… But what makes ME
alive. I play chants and dance to them… I do some yoga and
breathing exercises. But mostly I love to dance. I reason that
if people can pray to stone… or a book… or a picture… or a
mountain and that's acceptable… why not pray to the strength of
the inner self - the core that stabilises us all? This is me
reaching for peace, stability and happiness.
It's certainly difficult to go through your challenges, even
harder when you feel misunderstood by your loved ones. Even
ifyour friends and family don’t give you the support you
need,
you can still connect with us! Visit www.ezrwellness.com
and get
in touch at care@ezrwellness.com.